So I'm waiting by a phone
For the blessed ring
Like a holy grail
for a fisher king
Time is ticking down
like a metronome
Rythmn for my brain
and its ceaseless scares
I never seem to play them to the beat I hear
Though my heart beat is a beat
that beats so near
So we had a talk last night
About the heavy blow that you dealt in fight
Your back against the wall
It was a puzzle peice
important to the whole that I may not find
You placed within the hole
I never seem to put them in the gaps I see
like a puzzle where the pieces lost you and me
Chorus:
So Im changing who I am
'cos what I am's not good
And I know you love me now
But I don't see why you should
and I don't see why you should
No I don't see why you should
So I drift into the end like a moth to light
Down the boulevard to a coffee shop
In the land of song
In the land of wait
Beat is bearing down on this lonely town
I never seem to write them down as good as you
Like I some where lost the keys that let me in
Chorus (extended):
So I'm changing who I am
'cos what I am's not good
And I know you love me now
But I don't see why you should
So i'm changing who I am
'cos what i am's not good
and I know you love me now
Though I don't see why you should
and I don't see why you should
No I don't see why you should
Sooo. Im back at uni. Chyeah, that's right im a cool kid because i spend five days a week at uni...ok maybe not. either way im a happy girl. I have things that worry me, but that makes me human. (: I love my friends, and my special boy. I love the way my life is playing out. I want to kick back this summer. going to be more than a few months of chill. it'll be a few months that i never forget (:
rahh ciao lovers, xxx
Like all the boys before, like all the boys, boys, boys(x2)
You left your blood stain on the floor
You set your sights on him
You left a hand print on the door,
Like all the boys before, like all the boys before (boys boys boys boys)
This is our luck, baby, running out
Her clothes were never off
We still have hours to run about
To scale the map, scale the map, to get us back on track
I’ve seen you in a fight you lost, Ive seen you in a fii-ii-ii-ii-ght
(chorus)Were under the sheets and you’re killing me
In our house made of paper, your words all over me
Were under the sheets and you’re killin’ me
Like all the boys before, like all the boys, boys, boys(x2)
In here the world wont bring us down
Our plan is golden
Out there a lonely girl could drown
In here were frozen
Where did the people go?
My hands are empty
You’re not the answer I should know
Like all the boys before, like all the boys before
(whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa,)
(chorus)
Were in a mess baby, were in a mess babe
Your more is less babe (oh, oh)
Were in a mess baby, were in a mess babe
Your more is less babe (oh, oh!)
(chorus)were under the sheets and you’re killin me
In our house made of paper, and you’re words all over me
We’re under the sheets and your killin’ me
(Ive seen you in a fight you lost)
Like all the boys before, like all the boys before
Were under the sheets and your killing me
Our house full of paper and you’re words all over me
Were under the sheets and youre killing me
(oh you’re killin me, your killin me!!)
Were under the sheets and you’re killing me
In our house made of paper, your words all over me
Were under the sheets and you’re killin me
(killin me, killin me, killin me)
Killin me, killin me, killin me
so today i wear a smile.
not because someone told me to wear one, but because i can't help it.
i feel like this is the turning point. a well needed turning point.
there's this boy, see. and i havent stopped thinking about him, for a long time now. he makes my heart race, and my face blush. i have such good friends. like really the greatest friends any girl could ask for.
I was lost
I was frozen
Walking down the streets alone when
I saw this place was open, tonight
And the girls
They were rocking
And the alcohol was flowing
And I knew right away this was my life
Oh what a night,
Oh what a night,
Oh what a night
LEXI (:
So im up again. I havent been to sleep before 2am in a few weeks now. which is usually ok, because i work late so i have an excuse, but tonight i was home by 6:30 from work. I ate dinner, and watched tv.
Things have been in the fast lane lately.I love it, and wouldnt trade it for anything. Just so many new feelings are coming along, and i can tell my life about to change in some way. Uni starts real soon, and that mean results are out soon. Im worried, but im not. I think the only legit reason im worried is because my parents expect so much from me, and i expect nothing from me, so what happens is a bonus. I used to hate myself, remember? I used to want to change the skin i lived in. I hated me, and everyone around me. A few years back now, but im glad things have changed. whenever someone says im lucky to live the way i do, i correct them and say, actually no. Im not lucky, i worked to put my life the way it is now. I worked to gain friendships with good people, and develop people around me who love and appreciate me.
Ive thought about it alot, and i want to stay independent for as long as i can. i want to stay the lexi that i am right at this moment for a good time. im happy with what ive created, and im happy with the way people see me. it's not an over night task, and i get angry when people expect it to be.
I do like this blog tonight. nice to spill. not that i dont have people to talk to. i do, and i do spill to them. but i like to put it on a page. (:
I hope you know i love you.
(: I wake up everyday it’s a daydream
Everythin in my life isn’t what it seems
I wake up just to go back to sleep
I act real shallow but I’m in to deep
And all I care about is sex and violence
And a heavy bass line is my kind of silence
Everybody says I got to get a grip
But I let sanity give me the slip
