Fuck I'm happy. (:
I have perfect friends.
I don't that perfection doesn't exsist.
It does.
The past week has been AMAZING.
I was on the set of "letters and numbers"
...yes a nerdy maths quiz show.
and my episodes will be on in ....MARCH 2011.
hahaha.
yes next year. yays (:
cheyeah i'm a cool kid.
i woke up thinking, ceeebs study. got to uni...and did three hours study.
like wtf.
tonight...out with the cool kids.
tomorrow workies with the best friend.
Sunday, more study, buuut it needs to be done.
Next week, work wednesday night and friday with the bestie.
thenn saturday night.
getting trashed.
getting TRASHED (:
ps. I love life. (:
Friday, October 8, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
theoc.
So lately i'e been watching the OC season two.
Why can't my life be more like that?
Seriously, they all get there shit toegther quickly.
I never see them study.
Ugh.
I'm so over feeling crap about things in my life.
Done.
Done.
Tomorrow I shall start a new
ps im going to be on tv (:
Why can't my life be more like that?
Seriously, they all get there shit toegther quickly.
I never see them study.
Ugh.
I'm so over feeling crap about things in my life.
Done.
Done.
Tomorrow I shall start a new
ps im going to be on tv (:
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Survivor.
Yes I have moments I wish you were back, but mostly I just want you back in my life. As my best friend. Not a boyfriend, but my best friend.
But I know the answer, it's this little thing called time. Everyone's FAVOURITE ELEMENT. tee hee. and usually not mine. I am a patient soul. When I know what I want, and have decided it's what I want, I shall wait (:
She's your number one. Got it buddy.
xxxxx
I will survive.
But I know the answer, it's this little thing called time. Everyone's FAVOURITE ELEMENT. tee hee. and usually not mine. I am a patient soul. When I know what I want, and have decided it's what I want, I shall wait (:
She's your number one. Got it buddy.
The Ones I Love:
I will survive.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
18:12
Happy.child.
I am sorting things out with people. Emailing people. Sending things away. cleaning up my room. going for more runs. doing more push ups. sorting out CRAP in my life. so that it is no longer crap. and it is then GOOD things (: oh i am excited (:
in other news. uni work is coming along. it's pilling up, but it's coming along.
going out this weekend. worknig sat morning and sun night, so yay for a weekend tail ended by work. but saturday night i plan to make sure i get wasted. get happy. get pure (:
this is a really pointless blog. but i dont get a flip
Peace. xx
I am sorting things out with people. Emailing people. Sending things away. cleaning up my room. going for more runs. doing more push ups. sorting out CRAP in my life. so that it is no longer crap. and it is then GOOD things (: oh i am excited (:
in other news. uni work is coming along. it's pilling up, but it's coming along.
going out this weekend. worknig sat morning and sun night, so yay for a weekend tail ended by work. but saturday night i plan to make sure i get wasted. get happy. get pure (:
this is a really pointless blog. but i dont get a flip
Peace. xx
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Choose.
I'm free. I can't believe how easy it was to let go. So easily i let the feelings leave my body. I'm happy again.
Finally happy again. Like...maybe december 15 2009 happy? No, maybe not. I don't think that much happiness can be atained again. i've thought about it, and i think the fact that I'm chasing happiness is the reason it's being slapped in my face and I'm unhappy. I'm not unhappy. I'm happy. Just sick. Gah, i think I'm going to be ok by tonight. And it's father's day. So happy father's day dad (: I love my dad :D
So, I'm off to study. Like i should be (:
I'm so mad at you right now
That I can't think straight
And I should shut my mouth
So I don't let out the cruel things I say
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But sometimes it takes an act of my will
And a walk in a park turns to uphill
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay & love you
Love is just so beautiful
sometimes it takes work
And the ones you love
At times can leave you so hurt
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But the picture of love some try to paint
It's a contrast to the real landscape
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose you, I choose you, yeahh
I choose youu
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Some people think that love is just a feeling
So they fall out of love as quickly as they fell in
Some people think that love is just a game
But they the ones who always seem to end up getting played
Though everything around might change
One thing will still remain
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose youuuuu
I choose youu, heyy yeahh
I choose youu, whoooww
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Finally happy again. Like...maybe december 15 2009 happy? No, maybe not. I don't think that much happiness can be atained again. i've thought about it, and i think the fact that I'm chasing happiness is the reason it's being slapped in my face and I'm unhappy. I'm not unhappy. I'm happy. Just sick. Gah, i think I'm going to be ok by tonight. And it's father's day. So happy father's day dad (: I love my dad :D
So, I'm off to study. Like i should be (:
That I can't think straight
And I should shut my mouth
So I don't let out the cruel things I say
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But sometimes it takes an act of my will
And a walk in a park turns to uphill
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay & love you
Love is just so beautiful
sometimes it takes work
And the ones you love
At times can leave you so hurt
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But the picture of love some try to paint
It's a contrast to the real landscape
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose you, I choose you, yeahh
I choose youu
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Some people think that love is just a feeling
So they fall out of love as quickly as they fell in
Some people think that love is just a game
But they the ones who always seem to end up getting played
Though everything around might change
One thing will still remain
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose youuuuu
I choose youu, heyy yeahh
I choose youu, whoooww
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Saturday, September 4, 2010
14:45
Rejecting Hearts
We had it all
Everything
Just for us
We build it up
On our own
Without anyone
If I try hard
If I tried so hard
Would you try with me
to sparkle us again
We know by now
What we want or
How we feel
Those three words
Are still somewhere
They're still for us
If I lie hard
If I lied so hard
Would you lie to me
and fool us once again
Pretend that were one,
Before we get to cold
Give me our novel
I'll write it back again
Lets stop now
Rejecting hearts
Within our thoughts.
If I cry hard
If I cried so hard
Would you cry with me
and wash away our past.
Forget what we've done
Before It gets to late
Give me our fountain
I'll fill it back with life
All that we've said,
All that we've ever did
It didn't made sense then
but sense ain't what we need
Maybe I'm wrong
Confused about right, as well.
Just know that these things
will never change for us at all.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget our hurt.
We had it all
Everything
Just for us
We build it up
On our own
Without anyone
If I try hard
If I tried so hard
Would you try with me
to sparkle us again
We know by now
What we want or
How we feel
Those three words
Are still somewhere
They're still for us
If I lie hard
If I lied so hard
Would you lie to me
and fool us once again
Pretend that were one,
Before we get to cold
Give me our novel
I'll write it back again
Lets stop now
Rejecting hearts
Within our thoughts.
If I cry hard
If I cried so hard
Would you cry with me
and wash away our past.
Forget what we've done
Before It gets to late
Give me our fountain
I'll fill it back with life
All that we've said,
All that we've ever did
It didn't made sense then
but sense ain't what we need
Maybe I'm wrong
Confused about right, as well.
Just know that these things
will never change for us at all.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget our hurt.
Because.
It's all because,
I waited for so long, you showed me you were the one,
I gave you my heart, right from the very start so,
Every time you lied, I knew inside,
Get another chance, I was hurting, I was broken
I stayed to long and so that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
It's all because, I loved you, (because) I held you, (because) I believed you,
You're not what I needed, (because) I'm stronger,
(Because) I'm better, (because) without you, you'd thought I'd be in pieces,
Because (you thought I'd be in pieces), because, I loved ya, (because) I loved ya, (because) I loved ya
You gave me, just one thing, but taking from the beginning
You left me, a heart ache, how much more could I take,
With every alibi, that made me cry, I'd still gave you more,
I should've given up, when I had had enough,
But I stayed to long, that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
I made a mistake of giving me to you,
I made a mistake of loving you
I waited for so long, you showed me you were the one,
I gave you my heart, right from the very start so,
Every time you lied, I knew inside,
Get another chance, I was hurting, I was broken
I stayed to long and so that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
It's all because, I loved you, (because) I held you, (because) I believed you,
You're not what I needed, (because) I'm stronger,
(Because) I'm better, (because) without you, you'd thought I'd be in pieces,
Because (you thought I'd be in pieces), because, I loved ya, (because) I loved ya, (because) I loved ya
You gave me, just one thing, but taking from the beginning
You left me, a heart ache, how much more could I take,
With every alibi, that made me cry, I'd still gave you more,
I should've given up, when I had had enough,
But I stayed to long, that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
I made a mistake of giving me to you,
I made a mistake of loving you
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
HappyGirl.
I've made some decisions this past week. I've pulled all the stops out to working out what it is I really want. Uni is first and then all my social stuff. But in all of it, I am number one when I make choices. This doesn't mean i don't care or listen to other people's dramas. I do. All the time. And i love being the listener, because I'm usually good at it.
But last weekend I was heart broken. Not like in the movies, but by such a simple thought shared between individuals. The forum of which was chosen to share the information which broke my heart wasn't fair. And then I was told how much I sucked at certain things.
And it was there and then that i decided I was going to move on. I have already started. I have let my heart of it's little tiny cage I was keeping it in, and I'm going to start chasing some tail. Like I used to in the good old days.
(: (:
PEACE Lexi xx
What you've got boy is hard to find. I think about it all the time. I'm all strung out, my heart is fried.
You got me pushing imaginary buttons
Step away from me lover, away from me lover
You got me counting imaginary school children
Get away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I can see that my carpet is animated
Walk away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I see you open wounds in everyone I've dated
Away from me lover, get away from me lover.
But last weekend I was heart broken. Not like in the movies, but by such a simple thought shared between individuals. The forum of which was chosen to share the information which broke my heart wasn't fair. And then I was told how much I sucked at certain things.
And it was there and then that i decided I was going to move on. I have already started. I have let my heart of it's little tiny cage I was keeping it in, and I'm going to start chasing some tail. Like I used to in the good old days.
(: (:
PEACE Lexi xx
What you've got boy is hard to find. I think about it all the time. I'm all strung out, my heart is fried.
You got me pushing imaginary buttons
Step away from me lover, away from me lover
You got me counting imaginary school children
Get away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I can see that my carpet is animated
Walk away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I see you open wounds in everyone I've dated
Away from me lover, get away from me lover.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Sixpence.
So I'm waiting by a phone
For the blessed ring
Like a holy grail
for a fisher king
Time is ticking down
like a metronome
Rythmn for my brain
and its ceaseless scares
I never seem to play them to the beat I hear
Though my heart beat is a beat
that beats so near
So we had a talk last night
About the heavy blow that you dealt in fight
Your back against the wall
It was a puzzle peice
important to the whole that I may not find
You placed within the hole
I never seem to put them in the gaps I see
like a puzzle where the pieces lost you and me
Chorus:
So Im changing who I am
'cos what I am's not good
And I know you love me now
But I don't see why you should
and I don't see why you should
No I don't see why you should
So I drift into the end like a moth to light
Down the boulevard to a coffee shop
In the land of song
In the land of wait
Beat is bearing down on this lonely town
I never seem to write them down as good as you
Like I some where lost the keys that let me in
Chorus (extended):
So I'm changing who I am
'cos what I am's not good
And I know you love me now
But I don't see why you should
So i'm changing who I am
'cos what i am's not good
and I know you love me now
Though I don't see why you should
and I don't see why you should
No I don't see why you should
Sooo. Im back at uni. Chyeah, that's right im a cool kid because i spend five days a week at uni...ok maybe not. either way im a happy girl. I have things that worry me, but that makes me human. (: I love my friends, and my special boy. I love the way my life is playing out. I want to kick back this summer. going to be more than a few months of chill. it'll be a few months that i never forget (:
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