Sunday, September 26, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Survivor.
Yes I have moments I wish you were back, but mostly I just want you back in my life. As my best friend. Not a boyfriend, but my best friend.
But I know the answer, it's this little thing called time. Everyone's FAVOURITE ELEMENT. tee hee. and usually not mine. I am a patient soul. When I know what I want, and have decided it's what I want, I shall wait (:
She's your number one. Got it buddy.
xxxxx
I will survive.
But I know the answer, it's this little thing called time. Everyone's FAVOURITE ELEMENT. tee hee. and usually not mine. I am a patient soul. When I know what I want, and have decided it's what I want, I shall wait (:
She's your number one. Got it buddy.
The Ones I Love:
I will survive.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
18:12
Happy.child.
I am sorting things out with people. Emailing people. Sending things away. cleaning up my room. going for more runs. doing more push ups. sorting out CRAP in my life. so that it is no longer crap. and it is then GOOD things (: oh i am excited (:
in other news. uni work is coming along. it's pilling up, but it's coming along.
going out this weekend. worknig sat morning and sun night, so yay for a weekend tail ended by work. but saturday night i plan to make sure i get wasted. get happy. get pure (:
this is a really pointless blog. but i dont get a flip
Peace. xx
I am sorting things out with people. Emailing people. Sending things away. cleaning up my room. going for more runs. doing more push ups. sorting out CRAP in my life. so that it is no longer crap. and it is then GOOD things (: oh i am excited (:
in other news. uni work is coming along. it's pilling up, but it's coming along.
going out this weekend. worknig sat morning and sun night, so yay for a weekend tail ended by work. but saturday night i plan to make sure i get wasted. get happy. get pure (:
this is a really pointless blog. but i dont get a flip
Peace. xx
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Choose.
I'm free. I can't believe how easy it was to let go. So easily i let the feelings leave my body. I'm happy again.
Finally happy again. Like...maybe december 15 2009 happy? No, maybe not. I don't think that much happiness can be atained again. i've thought about it, and i think the fact that I'm chasing happiness is the reason it's being slapped in my face and I'm unhappy. I'm not unhappy. I'm happy. Just sick. Gah, i think I'm going to be ok by tonight. And it's father's day. So happy father's day dad (: I love my dad :D
So, I'm off to study. Like i should be (:
I'm so mad at you right now
That I can't think straight
And I should shut my mouth
So I don't let out the cruel things I say
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But sometimes it takes an act of my will
And a walk in a park turns to uphill
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay & love you
Love is just so beautiful
sometimes it takes work
And the ones you love
At times can leave you so hurt
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But the picture of love some try to paint
It's a contrast to the real landscape
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose you, I choose you, yeahh
I choose youu
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Some people think that love is just a feeling
So they fall out of love as quickly as they fell in
Some people think that love is just a game
But they the ones who always seem to end up getting played
Though everything around might change
One thing will still remain
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose youuuuu
I choose youu, heyy yeahh
I choose youu, whoooww
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Finally happy again. Like...maybe december 15 2009 happy? No, maybe not. I don't think that much happiness can be atained again. i've thought about it, and i think the fact that I'm chasing happiness is the reason it's being slapped in my face and I'm unhappy. I'm not unhappy. I'm happy. Just sick. Gah, i think I'm going to be ok by tonight. And it's father's day. So happy father's day dad (: I love my dad :D
So, I'm off to study. Like i should be (:
That I can't think straight
And I should shut my mouth
So I don't let out the cruel things I say
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But sometimes it takes an act of my will
And a walk in a park turns to uphill
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay & love you
Love is just so beautiful
sometimes it takes work
And the ones you love
At times can leave you so hurt
Cuz when love starts out
It's all peachy
I love you, you love me seems easy
It's like a walk in the park
But the picture of love some try to paint
It's a contrast to the real landscape
But I promise to give you my heart
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose you, I choose you, yeahh
I choose youu
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Some people think that love is just a feeling
So they fall out of love as quickly as they fell in
Some people think that love is just a game
But they the ones who always seem to end up getting played
Though everything around might change
One thing will still remain
I will choose to love you, yeahh
Even though I wanna stay mad
Even though I wanna get angry
Though it may be easier to walk away
I will choose to stay
I choose youuuuu
I choose youu, heyy yeahh
I choose youu, whoooww
I choose you everyday
I choose you
Saturday, September 4, 2010
14:45
Rejecting Hearts
We had it all
Everything
Just for us
We build it up
On our own
Without anyone
If I try hard
If I tried so hard
Would you try with me
to sparkle us again
We know by now
What we want or
How we feel
Those three words
Are still somewhere
They're still for us
If I lie hard
If I lied so hard
Would you lie to me
and fool us once again
Pretend that were one,
Before we get to cold
Give me our novel
I'll write it back again
Lets stop now
Rejecting hearts
Within our thoughts.
If I cry hard
If I cried so hard
Would you cry with me
and wash away our past.
Forget what we've done
Before It gets to late
Give me our fountain
I'll fill it back with life
All that we've said,
All that we've ever did
It didn't made sense then
but sense ain't what we need
Maybe I'm wrong
Confused about right, as well.
Just know that these things
will never change for us at all.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget our hurt.
We had it all
Everything
Just for us
We build it up
On our own
Without anyone
If I try hard
If I tried so hard
Would you try with me
to sparkle us again
We know by now
What we want or
How we feel
Those three words
Are still somewhere
They're still for us
If I lie hard
If I lied so hard
Would you lie to me
and fool us once again
Pretend that were one,
Before we get to cold
Give me our novel
I'll write it back again
Lets stop now
Rejecting hearts
Within our thoughts.
If I cry hard
If I cried so hard
Would you cry with me
and wash away our past.
Forget what we've done
Before It gets to late
Give me our fountain
I'll fill it back with life
All that we've said,
All that we've ever did
It didn't made sense then
but sense ain't what we need
Maybe I'm wrong
Confused about right, as well.
Just know that these things
will never change for us at all.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget our hurt.
Because.
It's all because,
I waited for so long, you showed me you were the one,
I gave you my heart, right from the very start so,
Every time you lied, I knew inside,
Get another chance, I was hurting, I was broken
I stayed to long and so that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
It's all because, I loved you, (because) I held you, (because) I believed you,
You're not what I needed, (because) I'm stronger,
(Because) I'm better, (because) without you, you'd thought I'd be in pieces,
Because (you thought I'd be in pieces), because, I loved ya, (because) I loved ya, (because) I loved ya
You gave me, just one thing, but taking from the beginning
You left me, a heart ache, how much more could I take,
With every alibi, that made me cry, I'd still gave you more,
I should've given up, when I had had enough,
But I stayed to long, that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
I made a mistake of giving me to you,
I made a mistake of loving you
I waited for so long, you showed me you were the one,
I gave you my heart, right from the very start so,
Every time you lied, I knew inside,
Get another chance, I was hurting, I was broken
I stayed to long and so that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
It's all because, I loved you, (because) I held you, (because) I believed you,
You're not what I needed, (because) I'm stronger,
(Because) I'm better, (because) without you, you'd thought I'd be in pieces,
Because (you thought I'd be in pieces), because, I loved ya, (because) I loved ya, (because) I loved ya
You gave me, just one thing, but taking from the beginning
You left me, a heart ache, how much more could I take,
With every alibi, that made me cry, I'd still gave you more,
I should've given up, when I had had enough,
But I stayed to long, that's why, you didn't think that I'd move on,
I made a mistake of giving me to you,
I made a mistake of loving you
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
HappyGirl.
I've made some decisions this past week. I've pulled all the stops out to working out what it is I really want. Uni is first and then all my social stuff. But in all of it, I am number one when I make choices. This doesn't mean i don't care or listen to other people's dramas. I do. All the time. And i love being the listener, because I'm usually good at it.
But last weekend I was heart broken. Not like in the movies, but by such a simple thought shared between individuals. The forum of which was chosen to share the information which broke my heart wasn't fair. And then I was told how much I sucked at certain things.
And it was there and then that i decided I was going to move on. I have already started. I have let my heart of it's little tiny cage I was keeping it in, and I'm going to start chasing some tail. Like I used to in the good old days.
(: (:
PEACE Lexi xx
What you've got boy is hard to find. I think about it all the time. I'm all strung out, my heart is fried.
You got me pushing imaginary buttons
Step away from me lover, away from me lover
You got me counting imaginary school children
Get away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I can see that my carpet is animated
Walk away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I see you open wounds in everyone I've dated
Away from me lover, get away from me lover.
But last weekend I was heart broken. Not like in the movies, but by such a simple thought shared between individuals. The forum of which was chosen to share the information which broke my heart wasn't fair. And then I was told how much I sucked at certain things.
And it was there and then that i decided I was going to move on. I have already started. I have let my heart of it's little tiny cage I was keeping it in, and I'm going to start chasing some tail. Like I used to in the good old days.
(: (:
PEACE Lexi xx
What you've got boy is hard to find. I think about it all the time. I'm all strung out, my heart is fried.
You got me pushing imaginary buttons
Step away from me lover, away from me lover
You got me counting imaginary school children
Get away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I can see that my carpet is animated
Walk away from me lover, away from me lover
Yes I see you open wounds in everyone I've dated
Away from me lover, get away from me lover.
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