life.

i can officially say i am fulfilling my exsistance.
i am living my life "to the full."
there is no way i could fit anything else into my life.
nooo way.
im happy. and im settled.
but you know me, always seeing how i can make it better. (:


" I was looking lost it was cold outside

The whiskey rocks how you caught my eye
My red lips painted just got them black
I needed something to bring me back
You knew the play and we danced all night

But something wasn't right

So i'll see you next tuesday

If i ever get desperate
Or i'm so beyond faded
Just said i'll see you next tuesday
Kinda nice how this morning i would sit around waiting

And i'm not just being cold i'm just watching you pretend
Like your heart is on your sleeve when i know you have a girlfriend
I'll see you next tuesday
Oh oh oh oh oh

You won't call and you won't admit
The lies you spin for your power trip
And i just can't take you seriously
When all you send is a text to me
So i'll be gone when the morning comes
Let's not pretend it's love

So i'll see you next tuesday
If i ever get desperate
Or i'm so beyond faded
Just said i'll see you next tuesday
Kinda nice how this morning i would sit around waiting
And i'm not just being cold i'm just watching you pretend
Like your heart is on your sleeve when i know you have a girlfriend
I'll see you next tuesday
Oh oh oh oh oh

I don't want anything from this
I got your number don't call me i'll call you if i need a hit
Ohhh

So i'll see you next tuesday
(i'll see you next tuesday)

So i'll see you next tuesday
If i ever get desperate
Or i'm so beyond faded
Just said i'll see you next tuesday
Kinda nice how this morning i would sit around waiting
And i'm not just being cold i'm just watching you pretend
Like your heart is on your sleeve when i know you have a girlfriend
(know you have a girlfriend yeah i know you have a girlfriend)
So i'll see you next tuesday
Oh oh oh oh oh

Tuesday...
Oh oh oh oh
Tuesday...
I'll see you next tuesday
Oh oh oh oh
Tuesday...
I'll see you next tuesday..."

peaceee. xxx

triples.

So the past few days have been insane madness. i literally havent been home till now. which i guess is good right? doing stuff keeps the mind occupied.
ok. so friday night was amazing. finally my ten years of performing at yabc have earnt me a special spot in the triple threats. everyone is amazing. the singing is amazing. the dancing is amazing. the people are beautiful. i cant wait to start the year.

so next week uni. one week left of holidays. i cant wait to start. and meet new people. (: as well as keep the old ones. (:

peace outt...x

Farewell.

Dear Sajina,
although there is phyical distance between us now, i still love you, and i will forever.
you were the best specialist buddy.
:):)
today was sajina's going away gathering at Bundoora Park.
amazing.
if you think you have mad friends, you dont.
i have the best friends in the WORLD. i love each and everyone of them.

Lexi outtt. xxxx

Boy.

When we are together are happy, i will show you this.
i want this to be physical proof that i knew we were meant to be.
i want these words on this page to be proof that i liked you from the very beginning.
that monday night in february. when we were starting out.
i fell for you even before i came to the cliff.
you make me happy. you make me smile.
you complete me.
you're beautiful. you have your flaws, but i like them too.
i like us. i like the thought of how we will grow.
tonight, your words: "good night sweet girl"

this is me. feb 2010.

outt. xxx

Happy.

finally.
i found happiness.
i found my place in the world.
this time it doesn't rely on someone else, i'm not dependent.
this time i'm happy with the person that i am.
no one's going to change it.
no one's going to take it away from me.
to find love you must love yourself.
to find love you must have a happy soul.

"Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..
You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all."




Lexx outttt. xxx

Jack.

Jack was nimble
Jack, he was quick
Jack could jump right over the candle stick

Now he's gone and I'm burning
All alone
Yeah he's gone and I'm burning still, oh no

A beautiful story left incomplete
Ooh, how he knocked me off my feet

Sitting by my window pane
Thinking am I going insane
Why do you only shoot me halfway to the moon

And I can't get over that, over that
Baby after loving Jack
There's no going back, going back

Jack and Jill they went up that hill
To fetch a pail of water but there was a spill
And Jill came tumbling down, all alone
All came tumbling down, oh no

Pulled to the ground by gravity
Will it remain a mystery

Sitting by my window pane
Thinking am I going insane
Why do you only shoot me halfway to the moon

And I can't get over that, over that
Baby after loving Jack
There's no going back, going back

A beautiful story left incomplete
Ooh, how he knocked me off of my feet

Sitting by my window pane
Thinking am I going insane
Why do you only shoot me halfway to the moon

And I can't get over that, over that
Baby after loving Jack
There's no going back, going back

Oh no, no, after loving Jack
There's no going back

Summer.

So my summer was beautiful.

Not only did I find someone i could fall in love with. I also lost them too.

I have always believed that everything in life happens for a reason.

Sometimes, in fact often, we cannot see the reason. And then sometimes, still, the do not understand the reason why things happen. But no matter what, if we act our gut, and with everything we can possibly know in front of us, then regrets will be few. We will not regret a choice that was properly at the time. You just say, "at the time it was the best decision".

This is what I have learnt this summer. In fact it is one of the many things I have learnt this summer. I've learnt to love myself, for who I am. Nothing added. I have a lot of good things lined up. I worked hard for the 2010, and finally am enjoying the year.

Last week I bought my first car. Mazda Two, "Spirited Green", brand new. I love new car smell.

The next few months hold many new experiences. But the ones I am most excited about are the shows I've got tickets too. I will share as they come along. (:

Lex outtt. xxx