Rebel.

Rebel without a cause is amazing.
seriously.
go and watch it. (;
JAMES DEAN (:

Blog.

This blog is keeping me happy.
makes me feel like i can write my thoughts on a page.
i love being creative.
i dont get to be much these days because, well i'm studying maths and physics. haha, then again, maybe i should be an arts student not a science student.

i need to talk to you.
we're on the rocks.

PEACE xx

Time.

time. ah, it's so odd how people change and life moves through time.
if only i could stop time for maybe one day and do everthing i ever wanted, and then let time start again.
i like to sit down sometimes and imagine my life if i had made one single choice differently.
what if this morning i hadnt had breakfast? i would have left the house earlier, and hence maybe i bumped into someone i didnt. or even maybe the worst: been hit by a car because i had left the house earlier. 
isnt that and awful thought?
i have thoughts like that sometimes. haha now you can read my mind.
i hate how people mess with your feelings.
not that they know about it.
i just let it happen more often than it should.
way more often.

Lexx. peace...xxx

Late.

So it's 03:09am.
Lexi's up. trying to sleep.
failing.
but it's ok, ill come and write a blog to pass the time (:

The best things in life are free.
but in saying that, some things in life, need to be worked for. often money is required.
but with an open mind, and a clear heart, you can find happiness.
it is not impossible.
no task is unachievable if you put your mind to it.

"Say you love me, Say you love me

Then put it in a love song (Put it in a love song)

Say you need me, Say you need me

Then write it in a letter for me (Oh oh oh)

Say you want me, Say you want me

Then text me on the cell phone (Text me on my cell phone)

Say you love me, Say you love me

Then put me in a love song (Oh)"

Lex outt..peace xxx

memory.

I have a very good memory.
I literally remember everything.
even if i say i dont, then im lying.
and on the rare occasion i can't bring an event or person to the forefront of my mind,
i will get super angry, and make a scene
nothing slips me
nothing leaves my brain

now some people would kill for a memory like mine.
except alot of the time it is a tool for destruction of my inner a thought.
a consequence is that i never stop thinking.
i never have a quiet moment, or a time when i can think about one thing.
everything must be all mixed up and messy.

like i how much i miss some people.
i think i said that in my last blog too.
i want to stop missing people and move on.
if only. if only.

another bad side to me is that i always need closure or i wont let things go.

you know what?
i dont want to hear how bad your life is.
if it's so crap, or you havent had the best time:
MAKE NEW MEMORIES.
new memories.
new friends.
new places, and faces.

just go and do it and stop complaining to me about how shit your life is.
because im trying to enjoy mine.

AND I'm seeing Angus and Julia Stone live in 20days. i am SO excited. BEST band in the world. <3

It´s been days now
and you change your mind again
it feels like years
and i can tell how time can bend your ideas

and the boys go on and on and on and on
and the boys go on and on and on and on
and there´s gold falling from the ceiling of this world
falling from the heartbeat of this girl
falling from the things we should have learned
falling from the things we could have heard

well it´s been days now
and you change your mind again
all the cracks in the walls reminds you of things we said
and i could tell you that i wont hurt you this time
but it´s just safer to keep you in this heart of mine

and the boys go on and on and on and on
and the boys go on and on and on and on
and there´s gold falling from the ceiling of this world
falling from the heartbeat of this girl
falling from the things we should have learned
falling from the things we could have heard

and the boys go on and on and on and on
and the boys go on and on and on and on
and there´s gold falling from the ceiling of this world
falling from the heartbeat of this girl
falling from the things we should have learned
falling from the things we could have heard

falling from the people that we heard
falling from the love we never earned
falling from the sky that should have burned
falling from my heart

peace xx

University.

Turned out to be more amazing than i ever could imagine. i love the work, the people, the simple being a big responsible girl. (:
I miss people though. I miss ryann more than anything, and its still six months till i see him again. Stupid France ):
But i am very happy. gosh, this happiness is keeping me going for such a long time. keeping me energized. keeping my life on track. (:.

"I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly...everything is never as it seems."


peace..xxx